BACK TO THE WAKEFUL WORLD

EVERY NIGHT I SEE YOU IN DREAMS.
I FLOAT AGAINST ALL THE SPECTRAL MATTER OF MEMORY,
FIGHTING THE MIRAGES OF AFTERTHOUGHTS.
I BREAK PAST THE BARRICADES OF SUBCONSCIOUS RECALL,
IN A CLOUDY SHIFT THROUGH ENDLESS LABYRINTHS OF SIMPLE FEARS THAT HAVE SOMEHOW GAINED NIGHTMARISH POWER.
I ALWAYS REALIZE THAT IM DREAMING IN THE MOMENT THAT I SEE YOU.
I CAN ONLY MAKE OUT PIECES OF YOU.
YOUR FACE IS ALWAYS CLEAR TO ME, BUT THE REST OF YOUR BODY MATERIALIZES FROM ITS UNCARNATE FORM,ONLY WHEN I DON'T LOOK DIRECTLY AT IT.
I TRY TO WRAP MY ARMS AROUND YOU. AS IF CATCHING WIND, MY ARMS FIND NOTHING.
I TRY AGAIN, AND AGAIN. THE MORE I TRY, I FIND THAT YOU GAIN ANOTHER STATE OF SOLID.
LIKE A MIST TURNED TO LIQUID, TURNED TO ICE.
I FINALLY GRASP YOUR ENTIRE ENTITY ,AND LIKE THE ICE, YOU ARE COLD.
THE DREAM BECOMES REAL TO ME.
I CAN FEEL MYSELF SLEEPING IN MY BED, BUT I KNOW I AM, IN THAT MOMENT, IN MORE PLACES THEN ONE. STILL HOLDING YOU TIGHT, I SCREAM TO MYSELF, "WAKE UP!"
WITH THE HOPES THAT IF I HOLD YOU TIGHT ENOUGH I CAN CARRY YOU OUT OF MY MIND, BACK TO THE WAKEFUL WORLD.
IN ALL MY EFFORTS, BATTLING THE UNCANNY ELEMENTS OF HELL LIKE DREAMS, YOU SOFTLY SPEAK THIS RIDDLE INTO MY EAR,
"LET ME GO NOW BROTHER. THIS IS ONLY A DREAM. OF THE WAKEFUL WORLD I SPEAK. ONLY A DREAM. ONLY A DREAM. ALL LIFE IS ILLUSION. ONLY A DREAM. MATTER BEYOND MATTER. WE ARE THE BONDS OF THE UNIVERSES OVER. ONLY A DREAM. ONLY A DREAM. NOT A PIECE MISSING, JUST MATTER UNSEEN. YOU HAVE I AS I HAVE YOU, ETERNAL. ONE IN THE SAME, ETERNAL. MATTER UNSEEN. ANTI PHYSICAL ENERGY, DARK AND UNSEEN. EXPANSION OF INFINITY. ONLY A DREAM. ONLY A DREAM. TIME CANNOT KEEP US. ALL DIMENSIONS ARE LOST. ONLY A DREAM. GO BACK TO YOUR WORLD. UNDERSTAND. THE FRAGMENTS OF ME YOU STILL SEE, ARE NOTHING BUT THE PAST REVISITED. ONLY A DREAM. LET ME GO NOW BROTHER."
I WAKE UP.
MY ARMS EXTENDED INTO THE AIR.
I FEEL COLD.
THE TINY HAIRS OF MY EAR STILL TINGLE FROM YOUR VOICE.
TEARS FILL MY EYES.
IT ALL FEELS SO REAL.
I WRITE DOWN WHAT I CAN REMEMBER.
EACH TIME THE DREAM REOCCURS, I REMEMBER TO LISTEN. EACH TIME I FILL IN THE BLANKS OF PARTS FORGOTTEN. EACH TIME, WISHING YOU WERE HERE WITH ME, ALIVE.
IM DOING MY BEST TO LET YOU GO.
I LOVE YOU BROTHER.